The day we met, I couldn’t really get back of this feeling in me. He so much adored me that I felt his presence every single second. He called me on a daily basis.

Checked on me. My welfare became his concern.

He promised me heaven on Earth.

At first, he was the Best thing a woman could ever dream of having. I felt so adored, cherished and loved.

Wow, I thought it was happiness.

A day came, he told me he can’t do without me. I was the happiest woman on Earth.

We did things together.

We shared ideas together.
We walked to God together.

He promised never to leave.

I promised never to leave.
He said I am everything he seeks in Prayer.

I said his the only breath I needed to breathe.

He said we are now one.
I said yes that’s true
He told me that my body is now his.

I kept quiet for a while.
He looked at me and asked me if I didn’t love him anymore.

I told him I do.

Moreover, I have taken this decision not to have sex till marriage.

He started telling me how I was so precious, loving, adoring and what the Lord has used me to change in his life.

He reminded me that he was not going to disappoint or fail me.

I loved him and I don’t want to lose him.

I replied to him that my body is his.

We had sex!!

I felt something leaving me
Next time we still sex!!

Oh! It was sweet!!!

What I had been missing!!
He changed his confession at me.

No longer cherishes me.
No regular calls.

His level of attention ran dry.

My life was always wanting him.

My body is seeking him.

My vision gone

My direction gone

The light I thought I had became darkness!!!

We are still dating but we are no longer in accord.

The pleasure took over us.
Love died!!!!

The pleasure became love.
At a level, my life became a total mess.

The fire ceased!!!

I wanted to prove to him how much I loved him and right now am drowning
Two abortions for him
And I still tell myself I love him, that I am not gonna give up.

Little did I know that I gave up the moment I had sexual intercourse with him.

Little did I know that the love a claim to have for him was lust.

Little did I know that I sold my crown for a cloud full of cast.


My soul wept Because I love him, I overlooked my covenant with my first Love.

Because I thought I love him, I took over pleasure instead of treasure.


The love I thought I had for him, took my life in wearing.

How I wish I could have another chance to tell him that we don’t have to do it untill the exact time.

How I wish I submitted completely to Christ so that he will seek for me there.

I burn my world with sorrow and regret and I pray the ladies out there becomes a lady that when any man wants them, he will first seek them in Christ.

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